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Insanity is the name of the game
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[ December 12, 2008] |
Niki,
Unfortunately, I have to deliver the bad news that your fourth unit
test was only 60%. That gave you C+ for the course, and I posted
that grade in the computer this afternoon. Best wishes for happy
holidays and a restful winter break.
Bob Mellert
There's no fucking way...nononononoonon I'm sorry ; I promised myself i wasn't going to freak out over grades, but I fucking worked for those other good test grades, and this one too.
And not to mention, with my other tests, I disputed several questions with him because some of them were ridiculous and that actually improved my test grades.
I know, it's one class, but seriously, it's too early in the game to start getting grades like that....this is gonna pull my GPA down =[[[[[ How sad would it be if I did worse in this class than anatomy. Now that I know my grade, I hope I do, or else I'll really freak out..If only I had this frame of mind in high school haha.
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[ November 11, 2008] |
My hope&inspiration (in email form):
This is to say hi and greet you because i miss you much
how are you an how are your studies and your works?
We all completed the last exams and we are in holidays
we are excited for christmas and New year
How about you?
Am preparing my last steps of producing my audios musics,
i dont know if in this december it will be done because of my freind availability.
he needs to relocate to Kenya in this December. This disturbance prevented me to fix the date of production.
I will be telling you soon
I miss u My friend Niki!
How about USA culture versions we talked about which i would read through and teach me about your state;
I am still waiting for you.
Courage in your daily life and studies.
(From Isaiah in Rwanda)
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[ November 11, 2008] |
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New goal: giving up smoking cigs...& the ganja. Well, maybe not the ganja. Who knows. I don't even know how I fell so badly into these habits. But it's catching up to me so badly. My body can't handle it anymore. My lungs are nothing but phlegm and my days have been filled with embarrassingly excessive coughing. Just thinking about cigarettes grosses me out. Sometimes I just get scared, like I see those commercials where people say how smoking caused them to contract emphysema and whatnot. I used to think how I'll eventually just stop smoking, but I mean when is that exactly? It's been three years and I've only but increased how much I smoke, and yea, ok, I know i don't smoke half as much as some other people do. But it doesn't make it ok! As for the ganja, well, I do enjoy it's perks, but I have to moderate...badly. I don't want my brain turning to mush anymore than it already has. This is not the kind of image I want to project; not the person I want to be. I want to live a long time, people. Time to step up..
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[ November 11, 2008] |
Looking forward =] emails like this make me smile!
ciao bella
ma quando vieni in italia....... ?
ohi ricordati che qui c'è qualcuno che ti aspetta!! : )!
I'missing u B!
so please answer my e-mail and let me know about you!
t's all right?
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[ November 11, 2008] |
This is a call to arms to live and love and sleep together
We could flood the streets with love or light or heat whatever
Lock the parents out, cut a rug, twist and shout
Wave your hands
Make it rain
For stars will rise again
The youth is starting to change
Are you starting to change?
Are you?
Together
In a couple of years
Tides have turned from booze to tears
And in spite of the weather
We could learn to make it together
The youth is starting to change
Are you starting to change?
Are you?
Together
The youth
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[ November 11, 2008] |
When that fast car picks you up you will have no choice
You may hear the tires screaming but you will have no voice
But as the fast car picks you up you will weep and smile
And see heaven in the headlights mile after
Mile after mile after mile...
You don't gotta be no billionaire to get a ticket up to the moon
We all know somebody up there
You need a helping hand
Look
Come right here to help you see clearly now
Yeah
To help you see clearly now
Yeah
I hope you see clearly now
Yeah
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| Ramblings |
[ October 10, 2008] |
Lately I just feel that everyday has been a new and enlightening experience. Everyday, between expanding my mind in class, I feel like life is just whispering new, profound advice in my ear. God or whoever has decided to open my eyes to everything out there the world has to offer me and how to take advantage and learn from each of my experiences. Even my repetitive weekly schedule of working and going to school seems to teach me a new lesson. My job is basically a microcosm of many different people, lifestyles, politics, culture, language, and the list goes on and on. People probably wonder why I'm so passionate about where I work. I may not always have the greatest outlook on working at the diner, but I wouldn't want to work anywhere else at this point in my life. In the year and a half since I started working at Bridgeway Diner, I am almost fluent in another language, I've seen people hurt each other, make each other laugh, make each other cry, and be there for one another. I've gotten to know the hardships of people who did not grow up in this country and had to leave everything behind to make their lives better. People near my age who've had their entire worlds flipped upside down because their families could not support them. I see the lack of compassion we give to people who are working their tails off and have to go home only to wake up for the next 5 days to the same 10 hour shift. The amount of appreciation I have for my education has blown through the roof thanks to the kitchen staff. The fact that I have my two parents upstairs to talk to whenever I'm in need is such a wonderful blessing. I have a set of working legs and arms and a mind to utilize them with, but even more so , I have the OPPORTUNITY to reach a higher place. I have been given the tools to form relationships and share happiness with other people, despite our different backgrounds, despite our opposing opinions, and despite all of the unhappiness that all of us are somehow carrying on our backs.
It's all starting to make sense....I've written a bunch of entries similar to this one over the past couple of weeks, but I posted them all privately. I guess I've been feeling out to see if whether or not I'm really in this life thing for real. I am! For real. "Let the hurricane set in motion."
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[ October 10, 2008] |
I'm treading for my life, believe me.
How can I keep up this breathing?
Not knowing how to think I scream aloud, begin to sink.
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground.
I'm reaching for the life within me.
How can one man stop his ending?
I thought of just your face...
Relaxed and floated into space.
I wanna swim away but don't know how.
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean.
Let the waves up; take me down.
Let the hurricane set in motion, yea.
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down.
Let the rain come down.
Now, waking to the sun I calculate what I had done.
Like jumping from the bow, yea, just to prove that I knew how, yea.
Its Midnight's late reminder of the loss of her; the one I love.
My will to quickly end it all
Sat front row in my need to fall.
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[ October 10, 2008] |
WHYYYY do I suck at school this semester?? I just wanna do STUFFFFF ugh. My brain is rotting
and blistering
from the stress
because this history class isn't real!
Nothing is, actually, and I guess that's awesome?
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[ October 10, 2008] |
-excitement-
..for next summer ( of course, I'm always planning ahead). But I have the itch, everyone, for ESPANOL,ESPANOL, and more ESPANOL. Mexico&Peru. Credits & volunteering. Productivity& fulfillment! I'm trying my hardest to suppress my excitement, because it's overshadowing how awesome life is now, but it's so hard!
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[ October 10, 2008] |
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Buen Cumpleanos =[
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[ October 10, 2008] |
1. Open Itunes, winamp, Windows media player...etc.
2. Put it on Shuffle
3. Put whatever song comes up next no matter how embarassing.
Opening Credits: To Tame the Perilous Skies- David Holsinger (hahhahah)
First Day at School: Imagine- John Lennon
Falling In Love: Take the Reins- Tsunami Bomb
Fight Song: To Live and Die in L.A - Tupac ft. Val Young
Drama: Can't Stop- Red Hot Chili Peppers
Breaking Up: Come Together- The Beatles
Prom:Hernando's Hideaway - The Pajama Game SOundtrack (hahha)
Life: Verdi Cries- 10,000 Maniacs
Mental Breakdown: Why Don't You Do Right?- Rasputina
Driving: Coma Girl- Joe Strummer and the Mescaleros
Flashback: Tender- Feeder
Wedding: Kiss Me- Sixpence None the Richer
Birth of a child: New Skin- Incubus
Final Battle: Chicken Stew- System of a Down
Death Scene: Don't Fear the Reaper- The Caesars (Cover of Blue Oyster Cult)
Funeral Song: Deer Dance- System of a Down
End Credits: Bliss- Phish
Some of that was eerily awesome!
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[ October 10, 2008] |
What a horrible day at work. The past two days have been nothing but dealing with incredibly rude people. Usually people are always very polite with me. Even if I forget something, I never really see people get aggravated. But Friday night and this morning, almost every other table I had would give me an attitude or complain about something before I even took their drink order. I couldn't believe it. It's especially hard when people see you running around like an animal and they complain that you're not paying attention to them. Heads up folks! I know what I'm doing, and please don't act like I'm a moron because you probably never had as difficult a job as mine.
I could write a book about some of the things people have said to me at work. A woman told the hostess I was lazy because I didn't butter her toast ( I asked her before if she wanted it buttered and she said no). Multiply that by about 25 tables and that's everyone and their attitude problem. jsdjdjaksd be nice to your waitress, people!
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[ September 09, 2008] |
I haven't updated too much about my life. Well, let's see.
Two weeks ago, I would have written how school was going pretty well. I would have said that my relationship was normal, but I was a bit apprehensive.
One week ago, I would say I was falling behind a bit in school, but nothing I couldn't handle. I would have said that my relationship was ending because I am too afraid of getting hurt later on.
And today, I will say that I'm still letting myself get a bit out of control. -deep breath...- I HAVE TO LEAVE MY HOUSE. -exhale-. There I said it. I really have to get out of here. I love my parents to pieces, they really, truly are the most important people to me. But this environment, these circumstances, are all piled up in front of me so high, that I can't see the point of continuing. I need to better MYSELF, and then maybe I'll come home or something.
I really hope this passes over soon. I want to start functioning and be more productive. I have so much to DO in life.
More to ponder later.
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[ September 09, 2008] |
In the middle of the summer
im not sleeping
cold wind blowing
in the middle of the night
they try to find me but im still driving
if your going to San Francisco
lay some flowers on the grave stone
theres music on the station and im just listening to cold wind whistling
and if they ever find me tell the papers cold wind cold wind
cold
cold wind blowing
cold wind blowing
Hey! hey! hey!
something aint right
something aint right
and if they ever find me tell the papers cold wind cold wind
cold cold wind blowing cold wind blowing cold wind blowing
cold wind blowing
cold
wind
blowing
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[ September 09, 2008] |
yes i amyes ia m yes i am
yes i am happy
with the fruits that life has given me to eat
to nourish my being and sweeten my mouth
but i think
maybe i think
ma ybei think
that i'm swallowing too fast
and the sugar is rotting my teeth
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[ September 09, 2008] |
“You cannot but talk about it,” said Elizabeth Ohene, Ghana’s minister of state for education, science and sport, trying to remain optimistic that the huge bailout plan for Wall Street meant there would be plenty of money to go around.
It would be far better to invest in the education of children, she told a luncheon gathering, than to use a bunch of fancy financial engineering to bail out Wall Street and other global financial centers. “Believe me,” she said, “it will be much cheaper.”
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[ September 09, 2008] |
wuh oh
uh oh uh oh uh oh uh ohh
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[ September 09, 2008] |
So , I officially am sponsoring a child in Rwanda..that whole "for the cost of a cup of coffee a day" shpeal,but I'm very excited!! His name is Celestin and he's eight years old.
Just a thought- if any one else would like to sponsor a child, here's the link- www.worldvision.org.
It really is very inexpensive ( $35 a month...just put away like $1.12 a day). It's an easy form to fill out and you also get pictures and updates about your child. A lot of people don't think these programs don't do anything or enough, but trust me. When I was at the orphanage in Rwanda I found out it costs just $100 a year to keep a child in school.The average person's yearly salary in Rwanda is only about $700. So if you think about it, you're contributing $420 a year. That makes SUCH a difference in a person's life. It'll cover school and still leave $320 for food, clothes, and healthcare. I've seen what it's like to help someone and make their lives easier. It's such a good feeling.
Some people have no idea how lucky we are in this country. We have so much overabundance, so much money,food, and supplies that we don't really need. Compared to a lot of other places, we are LOADED. I could talk for hours about the subject, because I've seen poverty and it's not pretty. Trust me, we can live without eating out all the time, we can live without our Wawa coffees and whatnot. These people can't live without food in their stomachs and healthcare, and they can't get either without- A.) Developmental projects and more access to education, which they can't get unless they have B.) MONEY.
So there's my two cents. I'll probably be making more entries like this.
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